In my mind
In a future five years from now
I'm one hundred and twenty pounds
And I never get hung over
Because I will be the picture of discipline
Never minding what state I'm in
And I will be someone I admire
And it's funny how I imagined
That I would be that person now
But it does not seem to have happened
Maybe I've just forgotten how to see
That I am not exactly the person that I thought I'd be
And in my mind
In the faraway here and now
I've become in control somehow
And I never lose my wallet
Because I will be the picture of discipline
Never ****ing up anything
And I'll be a good defensive driver
And it's funny how I imagined
That I would be that person now
But it does not seem to have happened
Maybe I've just forgotten how to see
That I'll never be the person that I thought I'd be
And in my mind
When I'm old I am beautiful
Planting tulips and vegetables
Which I will mindfully watch over
Not like me now
I'm so busy with everything
That I don't look at anything
But I'm sure I'll look when I am older
And it's funny how I imagined
That I could be that person now
But that's not what I want
But that's what I wanted
And I'd be giving up somehow
How strange to see
That I don't wanna be the person that I want to be
And in my mind
I imagine so many things
Things that aren't really happening
And when they put me in the ground
I'll start pounding the lid
Saying I haven't finished yet
I still have a tattoo to get
That says I'm living in the moment
And it's funny how I imagined
That I could win this, win this fight
But maybe it isn't all that funny
That I've been fighting all my life
But maybe I have to think it's funny
If I wanna live before I die
And maybe it's funniest of all
To think I'll die before I actually see
That I am exactly the person that I want to be
I am exactly the person that I want to be
[00:00.342] In my mind
[00:02.835] In a future five years from now
[00:06.209] I'm one hundred and twenty pounds
[00:10.226] And I never get hung over
[00:14.445] Because I will be the picture of discipline
[00:20.510] Never minding what state I'm in
[00:24.350] And I will be someone I admire
[00:28.564] And it's funny how I imagined
[00:31.630] That I would be that person now
[00:35.131] But it does not seem to have happened
[00:38.703] Maybe I've just forgotten how to see
[00:45.375] That I am not exactly the person that I thought I'd be
[00:55.398] And in my mind
[00:58.424] In the faraway here and now
[01:01.872] I've become in control somehow
[01:05.743] And I never lose my wallet
[01:09.899] Because I will be the picture of discipline
[01:15.773] Never ****ing up anything
[01:19.707] And I'll be a good defensive driver
[01:24.188] And it's funny how I imagined
[01:27.060] That I would be that person now
[01:30.750] But it does not seem to have happened
[01:34.231] Maybe I've just forgotten how to see
[01:41.023] That I'll never be the person that I thought I'd be
[01:51.696] And in my mind
[01:54.609] When I'm old I am beautiful
[01:58.130] Planting tulips and vegetables
[02:01.944] Which I will mindfully watch over
[02:06.052] Not like me now
[02:08.771] I'm so busy with everything
[02:12.535] That I don't look at anything
[02:16.223] But I'm sure I'll look when I am older
[02:20.695] And it's funny how I imagined
[02:23.869] That I could be that person now
[02:27.264] But that's not what I want
[02:28.838] But that's what I wanted
[02:30.963] And I'd be giving up somehow
[02:34.471] How strange to see
[02:37.754] That I don't wanna be the person that I want to be
[02:49.004] And in my mind
[02:51.998] I imagine so many things
[02:55.851] Things that aren't really happening
[02:59.553] And when they put me in the ground
[03:03.576] I'll start pounding the lid
[03:06.339] Saying I haven't finished yet
[03:10.368] I still have a tattoo to get
[03:14.069] That says I'm living in the moment
[03:18.518] And it's funny how I imagined
[03:21.618] That I could win this, win this fight
[03:25.008] But maybe it isn't all that funny
[03:28.368] That I've been fighting all my life
[03:32.001] But maybe I have to think it's funny
[03:35.531] If I wanna live before I die
[03:39.220] And maybe it's funniest of all
[03:42.746] To think I'll die before I actually see
[03:49.407] That I am exactly the person that I want to be
[04:03.686] I am exactly the person that I want to be