作词 : Aloc D
作曲 : Aloc D
Yeah, it's Aloc D,
Been down for a while,
Still trying to find my way out, and to survive my demons.
It's like they put a lock on my cell.
And left me here to…
I felt depression.
Not able to be catching my breath, got a hand on my chest and keep pressing.
Was I resuscitated? But only suffocates and sh1t nauseates me to intestines.
Live everyday like it's my last, stay till the end of that day.
Till I got stomach ache and Puke. Doubt.
Persuade: "It will be okay." Fugg. Did I fake a therapy session?
I'm an atheist. Even so I m hoping in some way He can answer my question.
Why I'm such a mess and I'm behind the Death.
Find me in dead end. Dead inside again
Still trying to side against the endless suicidal thoughts
that roots in mind and forge an inception.
I glanced everybody living they lives.
So why would I have been such a fxxking exception.
Probly time to have some mental health inspections.
Probly got brain infection.
“Cuz the desperation is so viral It's some he cannot escape. ”
cuz he has got no legs and retarded,
like a combination of Dan Taylor and Forrest Gump,
but without running to peace at the endings.
He strives for his independence, well as his freedom.
Well in case you have not paid attention,
There is no he, just me. I strive to make senses.
Cuz I see nothing else making them. shit's been breaking my fences.
I see myself in inferno, with a lock deep rooted,
I'm in for no exits. So I'm bending.
I'm descending.
I been eternally stuck in inferno, with a lock, I'm in for no exits.
I'm bending. I'm descending.
I see a lock deep roots in inferno, with a cell. I'm in for no exits
Cuz I'm bending. I'm descending.
I had been eternally stuck in a cell named inferno,
with a lock deep roots, I'm in for no exits.
I'm bending.I'm descending.
Though I got a lock in inferno, with a cell deep roots
When I'm in for no exits, still it be my intention,
to do better in every damn thing even in being a parent.
However I failed cuz I failed to be properly parented
It is why I'm always full of regrets and
See I wander in a god damn labyrinth,
back and forth, and forced back again.
Till it become a hobby.
Probly I should be in a hospital lobby,
Waiting for the doctor to diagnose me as psycho,
I ain't got no bipolar, I know.
Minor ones. I'd go with some more common senses,
“Non compose mentis”
I phucking meant this for coincidence.
Cuz my life is composed of none senses.
Sh1t, Maybe I should call it a cold incident.
Maybe there is no incident.
Just my whole existence is of no significance.
I'm so sick, sniff becuz of the allergy against this
sickened mentality.
It's almost as if myself is the enemy.
Cuz everyday I fight the urge to get overdosed with toxic comes from me within
Hope it's an easy way to put an end to me.
Cuz I never will reach the mental status I intend to reach.
Think I just meant to be ended.
Cuz I realized, them so called guarding angels to my protection,
are the ones who got those suicidal thoughts injected.
Think the evil thoughts of my alter ego break my fences.
I see myself in inferno, with a lock deep rooted,
I'm in for no exits.
So I'm bending. I'm descending.
[00:00.000] 作词 : Aloc D
[00:00.117] 作曲 : Aloc D
[00:00.234]Yeah, it's Aloc D,
[00:04.247]Been down for a while,
[00:05.760]Still trying to find my way out, and to survive my demons.
[00:09.061]It's like they put a lock on my cell.
[00:11.445]And left me here to…
[00:13.128]I felt depression.
[00:14.606]Not able to be catching my breath, got a hand on my chest and keep pressing.
[00:17.522]Was I resuscitated? But only suffocates and sh1t nauseates me to intestines.
[00:20.877]Live everyday like it's my last, stay till the end of that day.
[00:22.711]Till I got stomach ache and Puke. Doubt.
[00:25.132]Persuade: "It will be okay." Fugg. Did I fake a therapy session?
[00:27.862]I'm an atheist. Even so I m hoping in some way He can answer my question.
[00:31.062]Why I'm such a mess and I'm behind the Death.
[00:32.915]Find me in dead end. Dead inside again
[00:34.374]Still trying to side against the endless suicidal thoughts
[00:36.604]that roots in mind and forge an inception.
[00:37.982]I glanced everybody living they lives.
[00:39.602]So why would I have been such a fxxking exception.
[00:42.661]Probly time to have some mental health inspections.
[00:45.056]Probly got brain infection.
[00:46.844]“Cuz the desperation is so viral It's some he cannot escape. ”
[00:49.267]cuz he has got no legs and retarded,
[00:50.779]like a combination of Dan Taylor and Forrest Gump,
[00:53.533]but without running to peace at the endings.
[00:55.935]He strives for his independence, well as his freedom.
[00:58.524]Well in case you have not paid attention,
[01:00.328]There is no he, just me. I strive to make senses.
[01:02.486]Cuz I see nothing else making them. shit's been breaking my fences.
[01:04.896]I see myself in inferno, with a lock deep rooted,
[01:07.001]I'm in for no exits. So I'm bending.
[01:08.550]I'm descending.
[01:12.285]I been eternally stuck in inferno, with a lock, I'm in for no exits.
[01:15.187]I'm bending. I'm descending.
[01:18.465]I see a lock deep roots in inferno, with a cell. I'm in for no exits
[01:21.704]Cuz I'm bending. I'm descending.
[01:24.799]I had been eternally stuck in a cell named inferno,
[01:28.419]with a lock deep roots, I'm in for no exits.
[01:29.357]I'm bending.I'm descending.
[01:31.924]Though I got a lock in inferno, with a cell deep roots
[01:34.410]When I'm in for no exits, still it be my intention,
[01:36.623]to do better in every damn thing even in being a parent.
[01:39.369]However I failed cuz I failed to be properly parented
[01:41.734]It is why I'm always full of regrets and
[01:43.380]See I wander in a god damn labyrinth,
[01:45.180]back and forth, and forced back again.
[01:46.136]Till it become a hobby.
[01:47.510]Probly I should be in a hospital lobby,
[01:48.628]Waiting for the doctor to diagnose me as psycho,
[01:50.517]I ain't got no bipolar, I know.
[01:51.942]Minor ones. I'd go with some more common senses,
[01:53.603]“Non compose mentis”
[01:54.869]I phucking meant this for coincidence.
[01:54.869]Cuz my life is composed of none senses.
[01:54.869]Sh1t, Maybe I should call it a cold incident.
[01:54.869]Maybe there is no incident.
[01:54.869]Just my whole existence is of no significance.
[01:54.869]I'm so sick, sniff becuz of the allergy against this
[01:54.869]sickened mentality.
[01:54.869]It's almost as if myself is the enemy.
[01:54.869]Cuz everyday I fight the urge to get overdosed with toxic comes from me within
[01:54.869]Hope it's an easy way to put an end to me.
[01:54.869]Cuz I never will reach the mental status I intend to reach.
[01:54.869]Think I just meant to be ended.
[01:54.869]Cuz I realized, them so called guarding angels to my protection,
[01:54.869]are the ones who got those suicidal thoughts injected.
[01:54.869]Think the evil thoughts of my alter ego break my fences.
[01:54.869]I see myself in inferno, with a lock deep rooted,
[01:54.869]I'm in for no exits.
[01:54.869]So I'm bending. I'm descending.