I'm feelin' good first time in a long time
A lot of thoughts in my mind, not the scary kind
I used to fear senior year would've been my prime
But I never graduated, yes, I turned out fine
Searching for something that I need to find
'Cause I think about dying all the time
Life's ****ing hard, but I'm trying all the time
Damn, I'm on the edge, God's calling from the other line
But every time I pick up, I only hear the Devil
I don't give a damn, I don't wanna settle
I just wanna live a good life, die a good man
Like the bad mother****er I am
I won't deny it, I been living my life, not a **** given
Can't deny it, you can say what you want, but that's my decision
Can't deny it, I been living my life, not a **** given
Never had a family, but I had friends
If we're talking real life, I guess, that all depends
I was thinking more racial and moniker
Daydreams of living in Santa Monica
All I ever knew of family was television
'Cause mine was doing hard drugs and locked up in prison
I guess, that's why I never made the same decision
I'm just playing life like Atari
I was never perfect, I'm ****ed up, I'm sorry, I'm human
My childhood was ****ed and it's loomin' over me
Every time I think about it, I know I shouldn't be here where I stand
I just wanna live a good life, die a good man
Like the bad mother****er I am
I won't deny it, I been living my life, not a **** given
Can't deny it, you can say what you want, but that's my decision
Can't deny it, I been living my life, not a **** given
[00:01.128][Verse 1]
[00:11.769]I'm feelin' good first time in a long time
[00:14.513]A lot of thoughts in my mind, not the scary kind
[00:17.286]I used to fear senior year would've been my prime
[00:20.158]But I never graduated, yes, I turned out fine
[00:22.761]Searching for something that I need to find
[00:25.450]'Cause I think about dying all the time
[00:28.091]Life's ****ing hard, but I'm trying all the time
[00:30.892]Damn, I'm on the edge, God's calling from the other line
[00:33.782]But every time I pick up, I only hear the Devil
[00:36.980]I don't give a damn, I don't wanna settle
[00:39.584]I just wanna live a good life, die a good man
[00:42.907]Like the bad mother****er I am
[00:44.903]
[00:45.143][Chorus]
[00:45.370]I won't deny it, I been living my life, not a **** given
[00:50.809]Can't deny it, you can say what you want, but that's my decision
[00:56.375]Can't deny it, I been living my life, not a **** given
[01:10.373]
[01:10.608][Verse 2]
[01:13.299]Never had a family, but I had friends
[01:15.452]If we're talking real life, I guess, that all depends
[01:17.953]I was thinking more racial and moniker
[01:20.553]Daydreams of living in Santa Monica
[01:23.191]All I ever knew of family was television
[01:26.222]'Cause mine was doing hard drugs and locked up in prison
[01:29.427]I guess, that's why I never made the same decision
[01:34.350]I'm just playing life like Atari
[01:36.931]I was never perfect, I'm ****ed up, I'm sorry, I'm human
[01:40.450]My childhood was ****ed and it's loomin' over me
[01:43.279]Every time I think about it, I know I shouldn't be here where I stand
[01:49.941]I just wanna live a good life, die a good man
[01:55.299]Like the bad mother****er I am
[01:57.207]
[01:57.410][Chorus]
[01:57.604]I won't deny it, I been living my life, not a **** given
[02:02.903]Can't deny it, you can say what you want, but that's my decision
[02:08.454]Can't deny it, I been living my life, not a **** given