作词 : Brandi Carlile
作曲 : Brandi Carlile
Returning to myself
I'm not my favorite person to spend my time with.
Returning to myself is not just a lonely, but a painfully boring thing to do.
So much so, that I'm actually not at all interested in doing it.
I prefer to double, triple, and quadruple down on codependency,
which I've come to learn that outside of a 12-step program or junior high school relationships isn't really as unhealthy as we all maybe thought.
For me, the key to learning to be alone is to not be alone at all.
It's being alone in a crowded room.
It's hearing an unexpected doorbell ring and wondering who has shown up to watch me read my book and bite my nails all day.
That a guest can be a deep lean-in over a cheap bottle of wine or simply an eyebrow raise and a gesture toward the refrigerator while I play Zelda,
where I totally choose myself with someone so close to me that I can hear them relax.
People want to be together in silence more than we allow in our time.
It's falling deeply in love with car wheels on a gravel road, the possibility of the visitor, the not-being-aloneness of it all.
Togetherness has given me everything I love about being alive. Starting with my original family in a single-wide mobile home gathered around a wood stove,
all the way to living with my band, and haunting my wife everywhere she goes.
Raising my kids on a tour bus, and learning at the feet of Joni Mitchell, and making music with my greatest hero of all time, Elton John.
Why is it heroic to untether, when the tense work of togetherness is so much more interesting?
It's because I don't want to do it.
Because I don't want to return to myself.
And that's why I will.”
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LRC歌词版本
[00:00.000] 作词 : Brandi Carlile
[00:01.000] 作曲 : Brandi Carlile
[00:14.127]Returning to myself
[00:19.213]I'm not my favorite person to spend my time with.
[00:22.463]Returning to myself is not just a lonely, but a painfully boring thing to do.
[00:28.236]So much so, that I'm actually not at all interested in doing it.
[00:32.432]I prefer to double, triple, and quadruple down on codependency,
[00:36.504]which I've come to learn that outside of a 12-step program or junior high school relationships isn't really as unhealthy as we all maybe thought.
[00:44.476]For me, the key to learning to be alone is to not be alone at all.
[00:47.817]It's being alone in a crowded room.
[00:52.674]It's hearing an unexpected doorbell ring and wondering who has shown up to watch me read my book and bite my nails all day.
[00:59.144]That a guest can be a deep lean-in over a cheap bottle of wine or simply an eyebrow raise and a gesture toward the refrigerator while I play Zelda,
[01:07.833]where I totally choose myself with someone so close to me that I can hear them relax.
[01:13.592]People want to be together in silence more than we allow in our time.
[01:18.242]It's falling deeply in love with car wheels on a gravel road, the possibility of the visitor, the not-being-aloneness of it all.
[01:27.401]Togetherness has given me everything I love about being alive. Starting with my original family in a single-wide mobile home gathered around a wood stove,
[01:35.530]all the way to living with my band, and haunting my wife everywhere she goes.
[01:40.503]Raising my kids on a tour bus, and learning at the feet of Joni Mitchell, and making music with my greatest hero of all time, Elton John.
[01:48.596]Why is it heroic to untether, when the tense work of togetherness is so much more interesting?
[01:56.103]It's because I don't want to do it.
[01:59.706]Because I don't want to return to myself.
[02:01.514]And that's why I will.”
作词 : Brandi Carlile
作曲 : Brandi Carlile
Returning to myself
I'm not my favorite person to spend my time with.
Returning to myself is not just a lonely, but a painfully boring thing to do.
So much so, that I'm actually not at all interested in doing it.
I prefer to double, triple, and quadruple down on codependency,
which I've come to learn that outside of a 12-step program or junior high school relationships isn't really as unhealthy as we all maybe thought.
For me, the key to learning to be alone is to not be alone at all.
It's being alone in a crowded room.
It's hearing an unexpected doorbell ring and wondering who has shown up to watch me read my book and bite my nails all day.
That a guest can be a deep lean-in over a cheap bottle of wine or simply an eyebrow raise and a gesture toward the refrigerator while I play Zelda,
where I totally choose myself with someone so close to me that I can hear them relax.
People want to be together in silence more than we allow in our time.
It's falling deeply in love with car wheels on a gravel road, the possibility of the visitor, the not-being-aloneness of it all.
Togetherness has given me everything I love about being alive. Starting with my original family in a single-wide mobile home gathered around a wood stove,
all the way to living with my band, and haunting my wife everywhere she goes.
Raising my kids on a tour bus, and learning at the feet of Joni Mitchell, and making music with my greatest hero of all time, Elton John.
Why is it heroic to untether, when the tense work of togetherness is so much more interesting?
It's because I don't want to do it.
Because I don't want to return to myself.
And that's why I will.”
🎵
LRC歌词版本
[00:00.000] 作词 : Brandi Carlile
[00:01.000] 作曲 : Brandi Carlile
[00:14.127]Returning to myself
[00:19.213]I'm not my favorite person to spend my time with.
[00:22.463]Returning to myself is not just a lonely, but a painfully boring thing to do.
[00:28.236]So much so, that I'm actually not at all interested in doing it.
[00:32.432]I prefer to double, triple, and quadruple down on codependency,
[00:36.504]which I've come to learn that outside of a 12-step program or junior high school relationships isn't really as unhealthy as we all maybe thought.
[00:44.476]For me, the key to learning to be alone is to not be alone at all.
[00:47.817]It's being alone in a crowded room.
[00:52.674]It's hearing an unexpected doorbell ring and wondering who has shown up to watch me read my book and bite my nails all day.
[00:59.144]That a guest can be a deep lean-in over a cheap bottle of wine or simply an eyebrow raise and a gesture toward the refrigerator while I play Zelda,
[01:07.833]where I totally choose myself with someone so close to me that I can hear them relax.
[01:13.592]People want to be together in silence more than we allow in our time.
[01:18.242]It's falling deeply in love with car wheels on a gravel road, the possibility of the visitor, the not-being-aloneness of it all.
[01:27.401]Togetherness has given me everything I love about being alive. Starting with my original family in a single-wide mobile home gathered around a wood stove,
[01:35.530]all the way to living with my band, and haunting my wife everywhere she goes.
[01:40.503]Raising my kids on a tour bus, and learning at the feet of Joni Mitchell, and making music with my greatest hero of all time, Elton John.
[01:48.596]Why is it heroic to untether, when the tense work of togetherness is so much more interesting?
[01:56.103]It's because I don't want to do it.
[01:59.706]Because I don't want to return to myself.
[02:01.514]And that's why I will.”