"Is Happiness Just a Word?"
Run(Go ahead and)
Darkness comes beneath the dying stars
With all the blood and scars
I'm gonna hunt you
With fear I appear
You crave the
Creature in me
Shattered, I will capture you
So run
My family don't understand what I go through
Under diagnosed for 20 years, ain't never broke through
You ever been in such a fog you don't know you?
Never being able to do the **** you're supposed to?
I wouldn't wish it on anyone that I'm close to
There's not an accurate diagnosis to show you
Basic neurobiology isn't close to it
I can't help myself, even though I possessed data
You think you know what I'm feeling, cousin, then let's wager
I'm having trouble retaining new information
Familiar scenes starting to look foreign- derealization
Everybody tired of being patient
Mama wondering why her baby crying in the basement
Constant rumination just exacerbates it
To the point where I can't barely narrate it
I've had doctors tell me that my mind is fascinating
But they can't tell me why the sickness has been activated
Darkness comes beneath the dying stars
With all the blood and scars
I'm gonna hunt you
With fear I appear
You crave the
Creature in me
Shattered, I will capture you
So run
My head don't work, the meds don't work
But I don't want to be dead, dead don't work
Sleep's the cousin of death, the bed don't work
Maybe I'd rather be dead; dead don't hurt
Realization of an inherent emptiness
Maybe that's another sin for the pessimist
Possibly I am a jinn with a exorcist
I've fallen because I've been on the precipice
Maybe it's my mama's possible regret
Maybe it's a neurological neglect
Maybe it's the reason why water's wet
The angular gyrus and where the frontal lobe connect
But maybe I'm being too complicated for you
Maybe I should just be calm and explain it to you
The psychiatrist thinking they could fool you
Paxel, Zoloft, it's just wasteful to you
I've tried meditation, tried to sit in silence
But how the **** that help a neurochemical imbalance?
Why would you tell a person that they were childish
Without an understanding of the pain that they surround in?
I always feel foggy somatic detachment
It's like my body isn't connected to actions
It destroys everything that's affected the fragments
I don't have nothing but senses and sadness
Darkness comes beneath the stars
With all the blood and all the scars
You crave the creature inside of me
Darkness comes beneath the dying stars
With all the blood and scars
I'm gonna hunt you
With fear I appear
You crave the
Creature in me
Shattered, I will capture you
So run
[00:00.00]"Is Happiness Just a Word?"
[00:07.29]Run(Go ahead and)
[00:20.44]Darkness comes beneath the dying stars
[00:23.46]With all the blood and scars
[00:27.16]I'm gonna hunt you
[00:29.02]With fear I appear
[00:35.51]You crave the
[00:36.35]Creature in me
[00:38.27]Shattered, I will capture you
[00:41.64]So run
[00:42.65]My family don't understand what I go through
[00:45.19]Under diagnosed for 20 years, ain't never broke through
[00:47.61]You ever been in such a fog you don't know you?
[00:50.40]Never being able to do the **** you're supposed to?
[00:53.02]I wouldn't wish it on anyone that I'm close to
[00:58.75]There's not an accurate diagnosis to show you
[01:01.21]Basic neurobiology isn't close to it
[01:06.48]I can't help myself, even though I possessed data
[01:11.60]You think you know what I'm feeling, cousin, then let's wager
[01:14.67]I'm having trouble retaining new information
[01:16.87]Familiar scenes starting to look foreign- derealization
[01:19.68]Everybody tired of being patient
[01:22.45]Mama wondering why her baby crying in the basement
[01:24.81]Constant rumination just exacerbates it
[01:28.06]To the point where I can't barely narrate it
[01:30.37]I've had doctors tell me that my mind is fascinating
[01:32.90]But they can't tell me why the sickness has been activated
[01:35.71]Darkness comes beneath the dying stars
[01:39.28]With all the blood and scars
[01:41.95]I'm gonna hunt you
[01:43.77]With fear I appear
[01:50.00]You crave the
[01:50.99]Creature in me
[01:52.81]Shattered, I will capture you
[01:56.07]So run
[01:57.52]My head don't work, the meds don't work
[01:58.99]But I don't want to be dead, dead don't work
[02:02.40]Sleep's the cousin of death, the bed don't work
[02:05.07]Maybe I'd rather be dead; dead don't hurt
[02:07.73]Realization of an inherent emptiness
[02:10.24]Maybe that's another sin for the pessimist
[02:13.00]Possibly I am a jinn with a exorcist
[02:15.56]I've fallen because I've been on the precipice
[02:18.37]Maybe it's my mama's possible regret
[02:20.97]Maybe it's a neurological neglect
[02:23.89]Maybe it's the reason why water's wet
[02:25.69]The angular gyrus and where the frontal lobe connect
[02:29.20]But maybe I'm being too complicated for you
[02:31.86]Maybe I should just be calm and explain it to you
[02:34.33]The psychiatrist thinking they could fool you
[02:36.89]Paxel, Zoloft, it's just wasteful to you
[02:39.55]I've tried meditation, tried to sit in silence
[02:42.56]But how the **** that help a neurochemical imbalance?
[02:44.96]Why would you tell a person that they were childish
[02:47.43]Without an understanding of the pain that they surround in?
[02:50.29]I always feel foggy somatic detachment
[02:53.46]It's like my body isn't connected to actions
[02:56.16]It destroys everything that's affected the fragments
[02:58.37]I don't have nothing but senses and sadness
[03:01.39]Darkness comes beneath the stars
[03:05.81]With all the blood and all the scars
[03:16.70]You crave the creature inside of me
[03:22.11]Darkness comes beneath the dying stars
[03:26.12]With all the blood and scars
[03:28.53]I'm gonna hunt you
[03:30.74]With fear I appear
[03:36.92]You crave the
[03:37.93]Creature in me
[03:39.59]Shattered, I will capture you
[03:43.11]So run