self destructive ($adboi Remix)

Self-destructive tendencies
That I have are killing me slowly
But that's fine
I like the way it feels
Yeah, I, I like the way it feels
When I think that I'm leaving
And I hurt myself to prove that I'm human
Where did I go wrong this time?
If I don't wake up, I'm better off
I'll finally catch up on my sleep
I've been so lost
3:00 a.m. thoughts are building a new home just for me
If I don't wake up, I'm better off
I'll finally catch up on my sleep
I've been so lost
3:00 a.m. thoughts are building a new home just for me
Tell me I won't be this way forever
I can't do this for much longer
Does anyone give a ****?
I don't think that's the case
I wanna be anywhere else but here
Lately, it's been getting hard to feel
But I'm getting used to it
If I don't wake up, I'm better off
I'll finally catch up on my sleep
I've been so lost
3:00 a.m. thoughts are building a new home just for me
(If I don't wake up)
(If I don't wake up)
If I don't wake up, I'm better off
I'll finally catch up on my sleep
I've been so lost
3:00 a.m. thoughts are building a new home just for me

[00:39.498]Self-destructive tendencies
[00:44.161]That I have are killing me slowly
[00:48.665]But that's fine
[00:51.216]I like the way it feels
[00:54.118]Yeah, I, I like the way it feels
[00:58.877]When I think that I'm leaving
[01:03.475]And I hurt myself to prove that I'm human
[01:10.863]Where did I go wrong this time?
[01:16.490]If I don't wake up, I'm better off
[01:21.689]I'll finally catch up on my sleep
[01:26.199]I've been so lost
[01:29.190]3:00 a.m. thoughts are building a new home just for me
[01:35.849]If I don't wake up, I'm better off
[01:40.628]I'll finally catch up on my sleep
[01:45.424]I've been so lost
[01:48.046]3:00 a.m. thoughts are building a new home just for me
[01:56.283]Tell me I won't be this way forever
[02:03.085]I can't do this for much longer
[02:07.795]Does anyone give a ****?
[02:10.724]I don't think that's the case
[02:15.439]I wanna be anywhere else but here
[02:21.251]Lately, it's been getting hard to feel
[02:25.994]But I'm getting used to it
[02:33.132]If I don't wake up, I'm better off
[02:38.289]I'll finally catch up on my sleep
[02:42.822]I've been so lost
[02:45.266]3:00 a.m. thoughts are building a new home just for me
[02:52.340](If I don't wake up)
[03:01.825](If I don't wake up)
[03:11.363]If I don't wake up, I'm better off
[03:16.745]I'll finally catch up on my sleep
[03:21.091]I've been so lost
[03:23.911]3:00 a.m. thoughts are building a new home just for me

自我毁灭的冲动，像毒瘾般无法自控。
它们在一点点耗尽我的生命，像慢性窒息。
但我已经无所谓了，
因为那种痛……反而让我感到真实。
是的，我喜欢这种感觉，就像终于听见自己的心跳。
每当我觉得自己快要消失时，
我就伤害自己，证明我还存在。
这一次……我到底又哪里错了？
如果明天醒不过来，可能反而是一种解脱。
我终于能睡个好觉了。
我已经迷失太久，连方向都忘了。
凌晨三点的思绪在我脑海筑起一座房子，只属于我，没有出口。
如果我再也醒不过来，就让我沉下去吧。
至少我可以不用再强撑着活着。
我真的……太累了，太乱了。
凌晨三点思绪，早已为我造好归宿，一砖一瓦都写着“绝望”。
告诉我 这一切不会持续一辈子，对吗？
因为我真的快撑不住了……
还有谁在乎我，到底有没有？
我想没有吧。根本没有。
我只想逃离这里，哪怕是坠入黑暗也比现在好。
最近，已经感知不到自己，
但我竟然开始习惯了这种麻木。
如果我不再醒来，那就别再叫醒我了。
让我沉睡，别再叫我面对世界。
我已经迷失太久，没人再认得我了。
那些凌晨三点的念头，已经替我选好了结局。
（如果我不再醒来）
（如果我真的不再醒来）
那就让我在梦里安静地消失。
别担心，我只是……想好好睡一觉。
真的，我已经什么都感受不到了。
凌晨三点的孤独早已为我盖好坟墓，不需要墓碑，也不需要花。

[by:梦弱]
[00:39.498]自我毁灭的冲动，像毒瘾般无法自控。
[00:44.161]它们在一点点耗尽我的生命，像慢性窒息。
[00:48.665]但我已经无所谓了，
[00:51.216]因为那种痛……反而让我感到真实。
[00:54.118]是的，我喜欢这种感觉，就像终于听见自己的心跳。
[00:58.877]每当我觉得自己快要消失时，
[01:03.475]我就伤害自己，证明我还存在。
[01:10.863]这一次……我到底又哪里错了？
[01:16.490]如果明天醒不过来，可能反而是一种解脱。
[01:21.689]我终于能睡个好觉了。
[01:26.199]我已经迷失太久，连方向都忘了。
[01:29.190]凌晨三点的思绪在我脑海筑起一座房子，只属于我，没有出口。
[01:35.849]如果我再也醒不过来，就让我沉下去吧。
[01:40.628]至少我可以不用再强撑着活着。
[01:45.424]我真的……太累了，太乱了。
[01:48.046]凌晨三点思绪，早已为我造好归宿，一砖一瓦都写着“绝望”。
[01:56.283]告诉我 这一切不会持续一辈子，对吗？
[02:03.085]因为我真的快撑不住了……
[02:07.795]还有谁在乎我，到底有没有？
[02:10.724]我想没有吧。根本没有。
[02:15.439]我只想逃离这里，哪怕是坠入黑暗也比现在好。
[02:21.251]最近，已经感知不到自己，
[02:25.994]但我竟然开始习惯了这种麻木。
[02:33.132]如果我不再醒来，那就别再叫醒我了。
[02:38.289]让我沉睡，别再叫我面对世界。
[02:42.822]我已经迷失太久，没人再认得我了。
[02:45.266]那些凌晨三点的念头，已经替我选好了结局。
[02:52.340]（如果我不再醒来）
[03:01.825]（如果我真的不再醒来）
[03:11.363]那就让我在梦里安静地消失。
[03:16.745]别担心，我只是……想好好睡一觉。
[03:21.091]真的，我已经什么都感受不到了。
[03:23.911]凌晨三点的孤独早已为我盖好坟墓，不需要墓碑，也不需要花。