BLÜ EYES

ooh I've been holding my breath
I've been chasing my temper
pulling pieces apart tryna get us together
except for when it comes to you and me
cause wh...

It’s been a rough couple weeks
Smiling lies through my teeth
Trapped in my head
I’m trying hard to hold it all together
Never good at living under pre...

I asked how you’re doing
But I didn’t wanna know
That you’re worse off than you were before
You’re throwing punches
Making this all my fault
Yeah, it’...

The only days that I’m not stressed
 Are days I work myself to death
 And I’m too tired to feel anything else

 Even then, I’m restless in my sleep
 M...

My birthday's coming up but
 I don't really feel like celebrating
 Been feeling kinda stuck while
 Everything around me keeps on changing
 Another yea...

It’s been four months since I heard from you
 Somebody told me that you moved again
 And I know that you blocked me
 But I still try
 And check up on ...

If I were a friend
 I'd know just what to say
 To fix everything
 Make it all go away

 If I wasn't in my head
 I could help me settle down
 Make all ...

I went through my things at my parents house
And it felt like someone had died
I started to cry
My old room is somebody else's now
It's been years sin...

You'd never know
I was fighting for my life eight months ago
I shut the door and covered the windows
'Cause the sunlight hurt my eyes
I couldn't even ...

You'd never know
I was fighting for my life eight months ago
I shut the door and covered the windows
'Cause the sunlight hurt my eyes
I couldn't even ...

I'm jealous of the kid I used to be
Who'd never had a panic attack or heard of anxiety
I thought getting good grades was everything
I'm living in the ...

You were a ghost
 When I needed you most
 And I know
 You think I deserved it
 'Cause things ended bad
 That I know, you're still mad
 But I guess I t...

I said things out loud
 That scared you
 You took them how
 You wanted to
 We came crashing down
 And you just couldn't wish the best for me
 Instead ...

You were a ghost
 When I needed you most
 And I know
 You think I deserved it
 'Cause things ended bad
 That I know, you're still mad
 But I guess I t...

You pulled me in with your stepping stones
 I took your word like it was made of gold
 Running breathless
 After something
 That I never even wanted
 ...

Pure intentions, so naïve
 I was only twenty-three
 Didn't know till you showed me
 Friendship could be currency
 I thought of you like family
 For th...

Used to run around in my bathing suit
Used to eat all of my favorite foods
Didn't even think about it twice
Never checked sizes on my clothes
Never hi...

I start to cry in the dressing room light
What I thought was my size won't make it past my thighs and it hurts
Seeing myself at my worst
I turn to the...

The steps outside of my apartment
The aisles in the back of Target
I don't feel safe anywhere anymore
Thanks to you
My sense of self is so self-consci...

I got used to tears on my shirt sleeves
Panic attacks getting groceries
Deep breaths and incense and heartbeats
The simplest of things could break me
...

Found the basement of rock bottom
Lost it all except my problems
Got laid off, I moved apartments
Maybe I'm on it
I think of the lessons, my childhood...

Maybe it was seeing my face on a billboard, on Sunset Boulevard
Maybe it was two nights sold out in London
Maybe it was twenty-five pounds ago, before...