Free Throw

What the **** did I just say?
 I think I've ruined everything
 I probably should have kept this to myself
 I'll try to put my feelings on the shelf
 K...

Oh, we were the best of friends
 And after all of this
 I'm on my own again.

 I told you how I felt
 "I feel the same." you said.
 But then I let us ...

I never want to sleep again.

 Last night I saw you in my dreams
 I knew it was fake
 Desires turn to nightmares with every chance I didn't take.

 To...

I know that we ****ed up
I know that you don't care
I've learned that such luck
Is something I have to live with
But It still hurts
It makes me feel w...

from Those Days Are Gone
released September 16, 2014
Two beers in,
Already feels like it’s one of those nights to forget.
The more that I drink the mo...

Lately I’ve been staring at my ceiling
Thinking daily, pondering the feeling
That you hate me, and how that makes me feel
I’m uncertain that you ever ...

What I say is what I get
I’m just tongue tied
Waiting in the back of my mind
Is “You’re not worth it.”
A daily dose of my own regret
And unsaid feelin...

To predict when I got out
What I thought I’d be strong enough to say
But I can’t tell you
I don’t know why
I can’t tell you
My throat goes dry
So I’ll...

You know I'm a drinker
But I won't swallow my pride anymore
Tonight you've got me thinking so hard that my ****ing eyelids are sore
I don't want to li...

Somehow I failed in your eyes.
Somehow I’ve gone stale
Is that all that you wanted from me?
I’ve seen the weight of regret
In the look you give me whe...

My thought process is constant rat race
A battle of emotions between numb and a bad place
I don’t think I’ll ever learn
No I’ll probably never learn
T...

Did you know that forever and always
Meant nothing more than a couple of words
And the smile it put on my face
I think that’s bullshit
You know it’s b...

My lifestyle is a form of suicide
But then again everyone’s is
Mine just may be faster than others
The drinking, smoking, hearing from my mother
That ...

These days I like to sleep my life away
But back then I'd stay awake just to see your face
I wouldn't sleep for days
But now I sleep for days
These da...

At the age of ten
 My father showed me
 What men were truly made of
 And that's what I'm afraid of
 Now that I'm older I've been
 Growing closer with ...

Do you remember the time that we gazed upon the stars?
From the front seat of your car, you told me love was not that hard
Now memories of you are fad...

Drunk in my room, alone again
For the second night this week, I call my friends
Ask if they could come over
But they've got plans
They try to invite m...

Is there something wrong with hanging out in a fragile state of mind?
I do it all the time I think as I sip on my cheap wine
I can see everyone around...

I'm stuck inside a body that I don't like
 Sometimes I try at night to turn out all the lights
 And pretend that I am in the shape to fight
 Every wei...

It took two years and change
Just to realize the pain wasn't worth it
Something was there,
but it just wasn't fair to constantly talk in circles
I kno...

It's so crazy that as you're aging, somehow.
Things become so complicated
But you water it down and saturate it
With the simple fact that dying alone
...

(****)
New photo in an old frame
Broken down vehicle with fresh paint
Fake smile, same pain
Washed up, everything is circling the drain
Repeating dial...

When I think about the price of admission
And the size of the wait
I would have probably denied this position
Tried to make my escape
But I pressed on...

These days I like to sleep my life away
But back then I'd stay awake just to see your face
I wouldn't sleep for days
But now I sleep for days
These da...

These days I like to sleep my life away
But back then I'd stay awake just to see your face
I wouldn't sleep for days
But now I sleep for days
These da...

Lately I’ve been staring at my ceiling
Thinking daily, pondering the feeling
That you hate me, and how that makes me feel
I’m uncertain that you ever ...

These days I like to sleep my life away
But back then I'd stay awake just to see your face
I wouldn't sleep for days
But now I sleep for days
These da...

I can't move if I can't look straight ahead
If I make it to the kitchen
I can act like an asshole in front of my friends
So I choke on my throw up and...

I can't move if I can't look straight ahead
If I make it to the kitchen I can act like an asshole in front of my friends
Just go to bed
I can't recall...